Friday, November 21, 2008

car cramps

i went to morongo for the first time. 
i surprised joann for her bday with megan. 
i sat in a car for a total of 8 hours in 24 hours. 
i almost died twice.
i didnt sleep.
i had breakfast with my mommy and took noelle to school.

such a random and adventurous night last night--just like olden days.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

history lessons

fact #1: I'm a history nerd.

Have you ever heard of the Trail of Tears? It was the forced migration of the five civilized Native American nations-- Cherokee, Chickasaw, Choctaw, Creek, and Seminole-- into Oklahoma from their homelands. Many Native Americans died from exposure, disease, and starvation along the way.

Well, the past couple of days have resulted in a trail of tears of my own. One of my closest friend's mom passed away after a long and valiant battle against cancer. I called friends and let everyone know the heart-wrenching news, something I thought I wouldn't have to do at this age. Every repetition of the story made the news that more real. To add to that, another three friends suffered losses just like this one.

In any other case, I'd be glad to go home and see all my friends and family, something I haven't done in quite a while. But this was the first time in almost half a year that this group of friends would reunite. The last united occasion was washed white with our graduation garbs; this time our gathering was dressed in black.

But I think that besides this horrible loss, the most shocking realization was running through my phone book and noticing all the people in my life who have lost parents, have parents with terminal diseases, or have a broken family.  I dare say that they constitute a large proportion. 

But there's a beacon of light at the end of the trail. Although my friends were forced to leave a life they loved behind and make a dangerous journey to a life they may possible hate, there are survivors. Many cannot endure the trail and perish along the way. They take the easy way out to avoid going through this odyssey. But those at the end of trail can say that they made it. Remember that the trail of tears does not last forever; it may kill you to go through, but you're not given any other choice. 

However, if there was any beauty to the Trail of Tears of the 1800s, it was that tribes stuck together. You were never alone.

History may not always repeat itself, but it does find ways to reincarnate. 

My condolences and prayers are with you and your families.

Monday, November 10, 2008

midterminations

only one month til the end of the semester. 
only one week til hell is over.
only one hour til my brain fries.
only one day til the next midterm.  
but a million reasons to waste time;
a million chances to procrastinate; 
a million ways to complain.

back to my office marathon.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Civc Duty

I became an woman today--i voted.  I probably should have said 'I became an adult today' but I'm here for shock value, much like the shock of the third party not winning. Just get rid of those fools. Here's another one for the Rickter scale  (shock value 7.2): President Barack Obama.  I saw it coming while simultaneously being side-swiped.  I know how to pick a winner, that's for sure.  To be honest, I only voted for Obama because I would move to Canada if Palin ever became president. No matter who won this election, the next few years are sure to be less than perfect.  Don't blame Obama because you hate his "socialist" ways.  Hate Bush for setting up a shitty situation.  And global warming.  Who woulda thought this would have been such a landslide.  At least I can hold my head up in conservative San Diego and back home in the OC.  suck it, losers.
but maybe more shocking is that there is a black commander in chief.  this is a historical moment. remember this day, cuz your grand kids will asking you about this. this event will be recorded in the same history books we learned about 2 world wars, the revolution, civil rights, etc. history is being made right before our eyes and we dont even have to read a text book to learn about it.


HOPE. CHANGE. PROGRESS. hopefully change is in progress.


thanks for fulfilling your civic duty.